My blogging activity has been completely ruled by emotions, at least till now. As unusual as it is, I was introduced to the world of blogging through WordPress. It was chosen to implement an article management system because of its simplicity and multitude of available features. My concept of blogging till then was limited to a personal diary. I was reading blogs, but unknowingly considering them same to be as other websites. However, WordPress showed me the world of communications, discussions and interactivity through blogging which was appealing and equally effective.
I posted a couple of articles on a site, but the downside of realising the power of blogging was that I got fearful. It was difficult to convince myself that I can commit to something so powerful without knowing anything about it. I still started my first ever blog – Abhijit Nadgouda @ iface, which is the old avatar of this blog. In spite of the fact that I wanted to talk on so many things I kept on facing the problem of What should I write about?. The typical answer to this was usually blur and it was difficult to break it into topics that might deserve their own posts. Either I ended up writing posts that were too confusing or too atomic.
Slowy I realised that I needed to know more about blogging. Which is why I started reading blogs like Lorelle On WordPress, Copyblogger and Successful and Outstanding Bloggers. This led to more reading and has ended up in my Blogshelf. Reading became a pre-requisite for my blogging and as expected it did improve.
By this time, I had grown skeptical of my blog, my writing ability or the topics that I wanted to write on. I tried to stick to the advice given and stuck to what I really felt strong about. However, at the end of every post I used to feel whether someone would read it, and if they did, would they find it interesting! I wanted to be read. I made sure that my blog was submitted to the thousands of blog directories, that Technorati indexed each and every of my blog. I used to be curious enough in the mornings and head to the dashboard to check the statistics and if there were any comments. If they were not encouraging I would get nervous, and wondered if I was on the right path.
It helped to read other bloggers at this point. I came across others citing similar experiences and I kept writing. One thing that kept on widening was my smile immediately after I clicked on the Publish button. That smile did not expect any hits, it was from the pure pleasure of writing and expressing myself to myself.
This finally led to a stage where I really did not care about the hits. Not that I did not care about my readers, I did, but it never bothered me that so many of my posts were uncommented. I tried to hold on to what the readers expected from me, my expectations from them reduced. This was when I really started to enjoy blogging. The satisfaction of expressing myself was too strong for the disappointment of lack of the incoming links or the traffic. I still yearn for comments, because I believe they sometimes build into valuable discussions, but still not enough to discourage me from blogging.
As I am writing this, I am in fact smiling that I could express, to myself if not to anyone else. This is in a sense therapeutical. This was very effective for me in technical topics because I could then read what I had written a couple of days later and understand it. I have previously said this, blogging has increased my capacity and capability of reading which keeps me in the loop and updated.
I don’t mean to demean the statistics and figures and the various tools available. They are great for discovering the top content, however, they should not be used to measure your own ability. Blogging should still be kept personal, of course it will provide higher value if it reaches others too. So, I will keep trying to get noticed but also continue writing.