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From Fear To Satisfaction

My blogging activity has been completely ruled by emotions, at least till now. As unusual as it is, I was introduced to the world of blogging through WordPress. It was chosen to implement an article management system because of its simplicity and multitude of available features. My concept of blogging till then was limited to a personal diary. I was reading blogs, but unknowingly considering them same to be as other websites. However, WordPress showed me the world of communications, discussions and interactivity through blogging which was appealing and equally effective.

Fear

I posted a couple of articles on a site, but the downside of realising the power of blogging was that I got fearful. It was difficult to convince myself that I can commit to something so powerful without knowing anything about it. I still started my first ever blog – Abhijit Nadgouda @ iface, which is the old avatar of this blog. In spite of the fact that I wanted to talk on so many things I kept on facing the problem of What should I write about?. The typical answer to this was usually blur and it was difficult to break it into topics that might deserve their own posts. Either I ended up writing posts that were too confusing or too atomic.

Slowy I realised that I needed to know more about blogging. Which is why I started reading blogs like Lorelle On WordPress, Copyblogger and Successful and Outstanding Bloggers. This led to more reading and has ended up in my Blogshelf. Reading became a pre-requisite for my blogging and as expected it did improve.

Skepticism

By this time, I had grown skeptical of my blog, my writing ability or the topics that I wanted to write on. I tried to stick to the advice given and stuck to what I really felt strong about. However, at the end of every post I used to feel whether someone would read it, and if they did, would they find it interesting! I wanted to be read. I made sure that my blog was submitted to the thousands of blog directories, that Technorati indexed each and every of my blog. I used to be curious enough in the mornings and head to the dashboard to check the statistics and if there were any comments. If they were not encouraging I would get nervous, and wondered if I was on the right path.

It helped to read other bloggers at this point. I came across others citing similar experiences and I kept writing. One thing that kept on widening was my smile immediately after I clicked on the Publish button. That smile did not expect any hits, it was from the pure pleasure of writing and expressing myself to myself.

Satisfaction

This finally led to a stage where I really did not care about the hits. Not that I did not care about my readers, I did, but it never bothered me that so many of my posts were uncommented. I tried to hold on to what the readers expected from me, my expectations from them reduced. This was when I really started to enjoy blogging. The satisfaction of expressing myself was too strong for the disappointment of lack of the incoming links or the traffic. I still yearn for comments, because I believe they sometimes build into valuable discussions, but still not enough to discourage me from blogging.

I have started to edit my posts (it is not sufficient a lot of times), and started giving just a little more to it.

As I am writing this, I am in fact smiling that I could express, to myself if not to anyone else. This is in a sense therapeutical. This was very effective for me in technical topics because I could then read what I had written a couple of days later and understand it. I have previously said this, blogging has increased my capacity and capability of reading which keeps me in the loop and updated.

I don’t mean to demean the statistics and figures and the various tools available. They are great for discovering the top content, however, they should not be used to measure your own ability. Blogging should still be kept personal, of course it will provide higher value if it reaches others too. So, I will keep trying to get noticed but also continue writing.

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  1. DesiPundit » Archives » Morphology of a Blogger said:

    [...] Abhijit introspects on his evolution as a blogger as he went from fear to satisfaction. He credits WordPress for this transformation. [...]

  2. Swapna said:

    Can relate to what you say. I should read the blogs you mention early in your post. Right now, I just blog for my own benefit.

    Good one! :)

  3. Sumir Sharma said:

    Abhijit,

    Marvelous
    Stupendous

    You have mirrored the inner thoughts and emotion matrix of each and every blogger. You have succeeded in bring out in words what goes behind writing on blogs.

    Desire of getting hits and comments is always there. However, they are not important if you have clarity about the topic on which you write. It is a job well done. It hardly matters if some one do not write a comment or recognize. If there is stuff in what you have done, whether a comment, or collection of data, or reference to important thing in life or cyberspace, it is going to serve its purpose. I may be identified after a year but if there is stuff in it, then it will be valued.

    I have been writing on such aspect of blogging. I never came out so clearly as you have done.

    However, It is my feeling that the people of India keep visiting you but they do not leave any comment. In case of American’s academic people (I do academic blogging at sumir-history) they will definitely respond and comment. Send them an email, they reply back. In case of Indians, it is not so. They do not have to put stamp and put the mail in letter box. They can not complaint the postal department has lost their mail when they had posted. They do not respond. On my other blog concerning Civil services, I get regular visitors. I know what they are reading there and they have copied from there. But no one has left any comment. Some of them emailed me. That is the only satisfaction. There is lack of professionalism and etiquette among Indian in case of blogging. Well it is just a feeling and an Indian Bashing.

  4. Abhijit Nadgouda said:

    Hi Sumir,

    Thanks for the kind words.

    I don’t think it is Indians or Americans, it is more whether you want to get involved in the discussion. The reason I would not want to get involved is when I don’t have enough confidence or I fear what others would think of my say or I have met some people who simply don’t want to. As blogging is getting popular in India, the importance of comments is slowly catching up. Another reason I have seen is uncomfortability with English language. I think localization will help here.

  5. Sumir Sharma said:

    Abhijit,

    There you are.

    It is uncomfotablity with English. Localization is needed.

    The emails which I have received about the contents had awful English.

    However, I have a different view. I am teacher teaching PG classes. Most of the students in my class are Visa cases that is that they want to show continuity of education to embassy. I do not know what is this game plan but all of them are dreaming about the days when they will fly out to Canada.

    Secondly, when I have to prepare my notes on Social history, I find books written by foreign authors only. Even the Indian authors writing on Caste structure and society do it in English. Most of sources, in short, are in English.

    Thirdly, when we teach about the nineteenth century, we find that it was not Macaulay who wanted to teach Indians the “English moral, intellect, opinion and taste”. (There are doubts about the authenticity of this very statement. He had written this to one of his friend. It did not form the part of the minutes as claimed. But I have yet to see the detailed minutes. The counter view is result of the research paper published in some foreign university). It were the Indians themselves who found that the medium of language would open a new world to them. Some thing similar to Japan was never attempted in India.

    Further, Why is there aversion to English? When Ilbari Turks were there, the Indian learned Arabic. When Chugtai Turk (Mughals) were there, we learned Persian. Our courts and land record terminology would stand testimony to that.

    Anyhow, the Blogging is definitely having a future and it will be a force. If interested just read http://digitalhistoryhacks.blogspot.com/. He is talking about about History informatics some thing similar to Biometrics. I hope I am not becoming pedagogic and boring you.

  6. Abhijit Nadgouda said:

    Hi Sumir,

    Pedagogic, not at all; boring, far from it. I think your comments are doing exactly what they are supposed to do – build discussions, I should thank you for it.

    Back to the topic, I think the aversion to English might not be intentional, but causal. How many of us use English in our day to day life, it is used only for formal matters. It is still not the main language for the common man to use in discussions or debates. It takes more effort to think up the discussion in a language and then translate it to English to put it on the Web. So, to bring Net to the Indian common man, we need to talk their language.

    I would even say that future of Indian sites depend on localization, which currently seems to be missing.

    Digital History Hacks is interesting, it will take quite some time to read through it :-)

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  14. Nikka said:

    thank you so much for this highly inspiring article! i’m going through the same thing right now, and i’m glad that i finally found something that can help me overcome that fear!

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